My Gardening Confession

IMG_20150613_160455084On facebook I have the best garden ever.

Mid May to early June, I went through a phase where if we went somewhere that had flowers, we’d pick some and plant them in the garden. I’d post updates to my facebook and eventually everyone, including my husband, assumed that I have this really diverse and flourishing garden.

Then the lillies bloomed!With over 192 bulbs, my garden truly was a sight!

 

“I can’t wait to see the garden you’ve been working hard on” ~ Mr. A

IMG_20150626_123254390 I get really passionate about gardening when spring hits. I sketch up ideas in my head of all the pretty flowers and how one day I’ll find a photographer from HGTV at my doorstep who wants to photo my award winning lillies.

After awhile though, weeding, watering, and lily beetle hunting becomes easier to push off and ignore. I have more important things to do like go to the beach and sleep in! I think my desire to garden is more like a spring time sickness where I spend lots of money on things I don’t expect to keep alive.

 

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Every so often though, like when it has just rained and the flowers are all dewwy and bright, I grab my camera and post on facebook a photo of my garden. And I get an influx of comments about how beautiful my garden is. And for awhile, I think that maybe I am not that bad at gardening after all.

The only difference between my gardening skills from last year to this year is that I know a lot more about digital photography. I learned all about angles and cropping photos so you can accentuate the good in a shot and hide the not so good. I also really haven’t invited anyone over, so…… no witnesses….

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It’s time to be honest though, I have a yellow thumb at best with green thumb ambitions.

I don’t have the gardening stamina to truly be a great gardener.

Most of what survives and thrives in this garden was planted by the previous owner.

 

Here is a front shot of my garden this morning:

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It is not the perfect garden that everyone on my facebook thread assumes it to be. It’s not overflowing with fauna, in fact there is more empty spacing than flowers.

Isn’t that just like social media, though? I decide what the world sees and for the most part most people assume it’s the truth. I can spin the perfect life for myself, but that extends only to the digital world and maybe in chance encounters in the public.

Come home with me and you’ll see that not everything is perfect. And that’s ok, because despite all the gaping holes where things died in my garden, I always learn more each year.

FIMG_1122or the moments I capture, my garden becomes the most beautiful garden in the world to me. And since I am the one that looks at it everyday, I am the only one that matters.

Sometimes, when your life feels like a sparce garden, it’s necessary to stop and capture the beautiful moments. They may feel far and few inbetween, but they can be found. It’s just a matter of learning how to look at things from a new angle and crop to accentuate the good and get rid of the not so good ;)

 

 

Here’s to all the beautiful flowers I bought that did not survive Faithie’s lack of a green thumb:

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Stitchy Friends

In 2009 my husband j406590_244990595570960_730615593_noined a forum that talked exclusively about film jackets. Mainly it was a bunch of grown men with a lot of disposable income attempting to make themselves the very embodinment of their dream movie characters.

It was a great because how many people do you walk down the street that you can instantly identify as having the same hobby as you do?

No one I know in the real world shares my passion. Sure, some have tried, but it never seems to stick even with the person who taught me, my mother. I’ve been a lone stitchy wolf for years.

So I ventured off in search of a forum that I too could find my own. And I found a great one right here. I found numerous people who were as passionate about stitching as I was. I was such a niave little stitcher before them. I had no idea what HAED stood for, the pros and cons to parking, and oh boy the heated division between those who use bobbins and other nonconventional methods like stitchbows. My stashy budget overflowed with new threads and fabrics and cross stitch magazines.. Those were some good times! Eventually I racked up over 10,000 posts, most of which were most filled with “Great job! Congrats on the progress!” It was such a beautifully warm community that I was within.

The forum moderator sent me a gift of goodies when I reached that 10,000 milestone. (Which only 11 members  out of hundreds have achieved so far). In it was a cute little design.

I finally stitched it uIMG_20150725_090243087editp a few days ago:

I am really not active anymore on the forum, what with school and the chaos. I am not really on the computer much these days with a whole lot of free time. Despite the inactivity, I will always love that forum and the great people that embraced me as one of their own.

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On the flip side, after searching years for a stitchy companion to share my passion in person.. I finally found one!

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Season Two of the Real Housewife(ish)!!!

Season One of the Real Housewife(ish) of the Submarine World was such a hit, that it has come back due to popular demand!

Episode One: The Road Trip

Faithie goes on a road trip with her best college friend, A, for a National Women’s Conference for College Leaders. Watch Faith console her friend who is hard pressed to be away from her girlfriend for a few days, complete with flowers being sent to the hotel.

Episode Two: Put on a smile

Faith’s mother in law passes while still at the conference and she does her best to get word to her husband leaugues under the sea. Watch the frustration as she tries to squeeze information from her brother in law to get enough info to send an AmCross message, but ends up getting most of her information from vague people on facebook

Episode Three: Vague messages

Unsure on if hubby knows his mother passed or not, Faithie sends really lame emails to husband in attempt to keep his morale up.

Episode Four: EEG and MRI

Z-Man ends up having another seizure, which means moving up a lot of his labwork. Watch Faithie deal with having to cope with the stress of wondering what is going on with her son.

Episode Five: Give to those who have Naught

Faithie’s husband’s seapup’s wife asks the support group to help out a homeless shelter. Although Faithie felt it best to cut ties with the support group since hubby is getting out, she can’t help but want to volunteer. Was this bonding enough to want to do more activities with the wives?

Episode Six:: Lazy Lake Days

Faith and a group of friends start a Tuesday morning lake day after their morning thai class. But is it as fun as it sounds? (spoiler..this lasted two weeks lol)

Episode Seven: This is why we can’t have nice things.. 

Hubby goes on a spending spree in port, spending up t $2400 in one port. Apparently Faithie is supposed to be ok with that because the bulk of that went to purchasing her a ring. Faithie, however, wonders how well she can trust her husband financially when he is out of the Navy and can’t be making these reckless purchases

Episode Eight: Gay Marriage!

Faithie’s support of gay marriage ends up causing her uncle to go on a maniacle blasting fest on her facebook. Can Faithie cool the waters or will her uncle decide she is a lost cause? (Spoiler: I am a lost cause…)

Episode Nine: Fresh Meat

Faithie makes a trip to the college to help our at the school’s orientation. What she lands into is a drama filled student government executive board. Is Faithie second guessing her choice to become an executive board member?

Episode Nine: When the only man in your life fails 

In a random act of possible suicide, Faith’s car has a meltdown. Can she afford to get it repaired?

Episode 10: Let’s throw in Cancer

Granny finds out that she has cancer, and it will be surgically removed. Only since she has COPD like Faith’s mother in law, the chances of her having complications are high.  What are the chances that she could lose her own mother in the same way that her husband lost his?? (spoiler…Granny liiiiiiives!)

Five Minute Friday: Dreams

When my husband is away, I have these insanely vivid dreams. I actually remember the first one. I was in a bed with a long haired hippie man. I can’t remember his name but he was the love of my life. And he was leaving for war. He never came back. The loss of him was so devastating, I felt it all throughout the day. I literally mourned for a fake love that had died.

Each time he leaves, I dream fall in love with someone and for one reason or another my love gets ripped away from me and I am left with a gut wrenching loss.

There’s another set of dreams that include my husband. In them he’s always cheating on me and I end the entire marriage. The result is another set of heartache that again lasts all freaking day.

This deployment is different. I haven’t had any of these dreams. I can’t really tell if that’s a good thing or not…….

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Halo Soldier’s Road Trip

Recently I had the opportunity to take an amazing trip to Washington D.C for a conference…

I’m going to let you all in on a secret…

I have been able to fool a great deal of those at my college in assuming I am a college woman leader…

My son, however, has to live with me on a daily basis and knows better. As such, I was required to bring along supervision…

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Meet Yellow Halo soldier. Trained in espionage and infiltration, and apparently babysitting. He was to keep me out of trouble while I was kidless..

But who was supervising who?!

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Do you see this? I turned around for one second and Halo Soldier was attempting to break into one of the most important establishments……….

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That’s right..He tried to break into the white house.

Halo Soldier really wanted to meet Michelle Obama

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What on earth is this?!!!! I found him playing with it and talking to himself like a madman.. He insisted it was a telephone… I have my doubts…..

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He ate an insane amount of food (and cofee… yeesh!)  And expected me to foot the bill:

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He also had a huge gambling habit that I was unaware of…

It was  a pain trying to get him up each morning:

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There were a few moments where he did come in handy:

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His navigation skills were on point…

As well as his mastery of the Metro system

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He was offered a job at Metro, but declined.

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He was also very conscienscious when it came to the environment.

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He made me some coffee from time to time..

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I suppose it wasn’t so bad to have the little guy around.

If My Life Was a Reality Series

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I feel as if camera men have been secretly watching my every move, because there is no way in hell that all the crap I’ve had to endure this past month is a natural state of events. Seriously, all the drama, action, and comedy that has been my life is made for TV. Here  is what the episode lineup would have looked like had it been aired. (Sadly, it was cancelled due to lack of interest)

Episode One: Pilot Episide

Faithie (played by self) must endure her last and final deployment as a navy wife. Can she survive as homeowner, college student, and mother to two crazy kids for who knows how long?

Episode Two: Birthday Seizures

Z is 10 and newly made made man of the house while his father is away. Can Faith make a fantastic celebration without the help of hubby, or will the party be spoiled by a trip to the ER? (Spoiler Alert… Z-man has a seizure that leaves us in the ER for hours the day after his birthday. plenty of follow up doctor visits to occur in other episodes..)

Episode 3: Strokes for the No Longer Broke

In this episode, Faith gets startling news about her estranged Father. Will she be able to handle this news and his his ailing health? (Spoiler)

Episode 4: The Support Network

Faithie attempts to unite with the woman whose husbands are also away. Does she find a bestie, or end up finding a nemesis? (spoiler: neither)

Episode 5: Faithie the Governess

Faithie is barely getting by with her strenous coursework and role as tutor, but the student government doesn’t see it.  Will Faith make a play for a student government position? (Spoilers.. I did)

Episode 6: The Curse of the Sea Captain

What is going on with all the appliances in the A family household?! The sink, dishwasher, two lawnmowers, and water filters all seem to be against Faithie. Is she really that incapable of taking care of her home without her husband, or is the sea captain buried in her back yard out to punish her? (spoilers: I just really am incapable lol)

Episode 7: Miscommunication

Mr. A  reaches a port. Amid drastic time changes and shakey internet connections, Faithie tries to spend at least 10 minutes talking to her deployed sailor.  While Mr. A is concerned about showing off his epic stache, Fathie has other concerns to discuss. (spoiler: his biological mom ended up nearly dying and requiring lots of surgery)

Episide 8:

Finals! The spring season is wrapping up and that means chaos for Faithie and the kids she tutors. And once the chaos dies down, does Faith get the break she’s been dreaming of? (the answer is nope)..

Episode 9: This is the End

The advancement list comes out, and it is the final chance for Mr. A to stay in the Navy. Watch Faithie have to celebrate the advancement of other sailors, all while mourning the fact that hers didn’t make it.